I went home with a heavy heart, mind is a state of confusion, I've been troubled since Common Test and, there, my mind is made up. There is a few obstacles, i just applied for NO deferment, i have to speak to tham and do some procedures, and MY PARENTS, they are more than obstacles, they are a burden.
What could be worse than a UUUUE, i have thought about it, and the most i can lose, is youth, and my peers. I ran, and I hid. i tried to escape. I tried to avoid. But reality gave be a kaboom.
Indeed, i have a low self esteem. I do not have the confidence to make decisions.
And Failure has been haunting me since sec sch. In '07, the lousiest express class in bpghs, to pathetic prelims of 39 points, and a disastrous 16 points .
i have set a target, when i start anew. I WILL BE GOOD ENOUGH FOR MEDICINE , AND I SHALL REJECT IT WHEN THEY OFFER ME A CHANCE.say no to medicine.
i dun think i have much of a choice.
.][-Splattered my blood on
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